the morning quiet

scene:
at work, alone, dear solace--the chill stuff on quiet, the heater squeaking in the background, keeping me cozy while i watch the slow-mo snow out the front window

things i'm thinking about:
. i just aligned the interac machine, the receipt printer, and the stapler on the counter..which suddenly, vividly, reminded me of a scene from a movie i watched the other day ... i was going to tell michelle what movie i had watched but i couldn't remember what it was called so i stopped before i started ... then 2 minutes later after i explained pan's labyrinth to her, she related it somehow to another movie, which was coincidentally the movie i was talking about in the first place ... and out of all the movies on the planet, there we had it. i like when things happen like that.
. i just found my movie stub in my back pocket. i admire myself for wearing the same pants way more times in a week than a person probably should.
. this song is so pretty it could stop time
. (i think i keep secrets from myself..is that possible? i can't tell)
. i bet when i was a fetus, i loved being in the womb. that might seem gross, but hear me out. things i love: the quiet, being warm, semi-small spaces, muted noises, and knowing something is just out of my reach but not quite knowing what it is. i think i'm a tiny bit claustrophobic, but for the most part i like having things closed in around me..i hate big empty spaces (unless they're outside and i'm outside in them, but even then i'd prefer there be trees around or over me)..like the store for instance, it is kind of big and open, and that's pretty vapid. but there's a big window in the front that i can look out and this morning there is slow snow occupying the air, so that feels quite nice, and there's pretty music inside, so that fills in the empty spaces a little. i love my bedroom too, i'm pretty serious about making it a cozy quiet place with lots to look at and get lost in. i was in chad's room the other night and it was depressing--bare walls and empty air and fluorescent lights...gah! what a nightmare! that would scare me more sleeping in than a room full of threatening shadows and secrets.
. if i were to get a tattoo, i would want it to be in the script from the opening credits of alice in wonderland. but i'm not going to get one. that's just silly.
. i just watched alice in wonderland for the first time ever the other night . i think i liked it. i liked the cheshire cat. but i did NOT like any of the birds. just so you know. very important stuff.
. my favorite place might just be the place where you've laughed so hard that you can't breathe
. i wonder if people who know me think i'm a person who knows what she's doing in any given situation.. i wish i could go outside myself and see me and make assumptions about myself, and then go back into me and laugh with myself about them because i would know the truth.
. time to read books